Thursday, May 27, 2010

Transitions and Internal Changes









The first morning I awakened on American soil I fell into an old habit. I woke up wondering what I had to accomplish that day - even trying to invent things that I just must do. It seems we find so much meaning in this. But I prayerfully decided against it - decided against feeling a slave to a checklist that will never give me the meaning I seek. Frankly, this is a fight here - a fight against an anxiety that seems to drive this culture, because we haven't well learned to stop and just be with each other - and that words are not always necessary.

God worked many things into my life in Africa that I wish always to retain: a new sense of humility that reminds me I can receive from each person, a settledness of heart and mind in the present moment and a deepened sense of trust and joy in Him as a result of time spent with His family. The list goes on . . . greater appreciation for work and a willingness to work and serve, a high priority on laughter, honest and frank communication with love, seeking God to meet my needs first and foremost and then looking outward, listening well to others and truly treasuring relationships.
So, in the midst of my transition back into this culture, pray God seals what He has done in my heart and life. Transition is a roller-coaster but I know He is with me as He has been and as He will be.

This blog might continue as the journey of life continues . . . thank you to all of you who have been traveling alongside me in prayer for the most recent, incredible chapter in Cote d'Ivoire.

Je suis dans la joie - une joie immense . . . car Yahweh m'a libere.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Relationships

I am not really sure how to write a blog about the many goodbyes I've said in the past few weeks. As hard as they can be, they are also rich. The relationships that developed in the past few months indeed changed my life.

Halfway through my time, I took some time to personally reflect on various questions - a way to assess where I'd come from and where I was going. One of the questions on the list was "what is your exit strategy?" At first I found this question almost repulsive. In the past year, God has been removing my checklist mentality that so often steals from joy and being present in the moments with people. In bringing this question before Him, I delighted to hear His heart was for me to invest more intentionally in relationships - continuing to pursue time with people and pursuing their hearts as well. What a blessing that was.

So, I learned to look for changes in relationships - as small as they may be. Day by day they can change and grow and people change as a result. We change how we think and act because of time spent together. And it is indeed rich.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

A matter of life and death

Knowing Jesus is a matter of life and death in every sense.

Djiakis' father was a prosperous man with 35 hectares of land. The villagers became jealous, feeling that he would become rich and leave them behind. So, they hired a sorcerer from another village to kill him. The sorcerer came to their town, spent one night there and then left. Shortly thereafter, Djiakis' father became ill and died. He had no protection against the power wielded by the sorcerer.

One Thursday afternoon, Mamy and I went with Djiakis for a balafon lesson. Arriving in the church courtyard, we discovered no one was there to open the main building, so we sat down to wait and chat outside. After a while, a tall man joined us. Though showing signs of aging, he was obviously still strong. We greeted him and made sure he had a place to sit. At first, the introduction was brief and he sat quietly as we continued our conversation listening to Mamy share a miraculous story of how God protected her father (a pastor in Congo) from an attempt on his life by another pastor. Djiakis translated the story into Jula for our guest.

Then, he told us his story. He lives in a village near Korhogo (about an hour from Ferke). His uncle is the chief of the village, but because of age is unable to perform his duties. So, this man is the acting chief. The village depends on him in this role. He is Muslim and has 4 wives and 12 children. His younger sister is a member of a sorcery group. She ate a man on "credit." (In other words, someone else killed him.) But, she had an obligation to pay them back a life for a life. So, she chose to kill her brother. All the village knew of this. Another member of her sorcery group came to speak with this man. The sorcerer told him to go to a church in Ferke and believe in Jesus - the only way he would save his life. So, the man hopped on his motorcycle and arrived at the church to do just that - to make the most important decision of his life. Before we parted ways, we prayed for him. Pray for him to have a sincere faith in Jesus - not just to save his life for the moment on earth. And for the entire village upon which he will have an impact.









Saturday, April 17, 2010

Snapshots

There are so many facets of life here that I couldn't begin to capture all of them. But I'd like to ramble a little bit with several snapshots of life that I have experienced, particularly in the context of the hospital.

After our weekend conference on child evangelism taught by Kathy (from Gladstone First Baptist), I shared the wordless book with Momi's house helper, Fatu. She listened well and we continued to talk about Jesus a few days later after playing Frisbee. Fatu is 13 and grew up in a Muslim family. She lives with her mother who has some physical difficulties, so in the evenings when she goes home she works at home. They can't afford to pay for school, so she works. And she enjoys it - says she sleeps better when she's worked all day. Her work is to help with cleaning, cooking and care of Rosa.
Today is Rosa's birthday - she is 2 and we will be celebrating with a big meal that includes popcorn, salad, cake, garlic bread with scrambled eggs inside and bisap (sugary cherry-like juice made from boiled leaves/flowers). Yum!
Yesterday I was working in the maternity building as well as with the premature twin girls (we are the only hospital in the north that does premies). Two moms were soon to be in labor with sad outcomes (one baby is dead and the other would likely die soon after birth), but then there was the mother on her 6th pregnancy and whose labor we augmented with Pitocin. The fourth 15-minute blood pressure check we discovered the baby was crowning! While the other nurse ran to get a wheelchair to take her to the labor room, I ran and grabbed gloves and caught the baby! So, when the nurse came back I sent her running again to grab a suction bulb, though thankfully the baby was breathing okay on his own. They returned, we dried off the baby and got him suctioned a little bit and I cut the cord! Second delivery - and rather unexpected! A big 3 kg boy!
On the other side of life, I see a lot of death here. Tried to resuscitate a baby brought in after a difficult (and poorly handled) delivery at the town hospital; he initially came back but the second time he just would not breathe on his own. It was hard to say goodbye to that one considering he had been my primary charge all morning long. Another man arrived in the ICU, where I often work, and lived about 10 minutes longer with a team of us at his side before his heart stopped. Nothing we could do. A 15 year old Type 1 diabetic spent several days with us as we tried to regulate his blood sugars. The family can't afford the insulin all the time. Earlier this week I heard he had died at home. A hospital employee just died a few weeks ago on Easter Sunday from a heart problem, leaving a young pregnant wife with 3 other kids. Sadly, widows have almost no rights here and her brother-in-law has already moved into her house, forcing her to move in with her father for the time being. Wives never quite belong to the families they marry into, so when their husbands die the family of the man can take everything but the household supplies and may even take the children.
On a very happy note, we had a baby nicknamed Lazarus who had been declared dead and then decided to start breathing again! As the RN Daniel said to me, it is the month for resurrections! He is now with his mother after spending a few days in ICU alongside two other newborns who were also discharged.
One day this week I brought a cake for the nursing staff. As it turned out, they were preparing lunch together that day in their break room to celebrate a 55th birthday. So, when not doing patient care, they were chopping vegetables, rinsing and sorting through rice, making a sauce . . . a very happy morning.
Cooking here is a blast - I love cooking with my friend Momi and am learning some Congolese dishes. I have also learned how to make yogurt and often eat yogurt with the mangoes that are literally falling off the trees here.
On the comical side of things, the cat dragged in a fruit bat this morning around 5:30 am and killed it. We removed it before he was able to chomp down much . . .
Our experience with voleurs (thieves) here is not at all uncommon. I've heard many stories since, especially from females who were alone. When the electricity is out, one gal told me she still gets nervous, even with a dog that they bought for security. There have been nights this week when the electricity was out most of the night in town. We are blessed with a generator here at the hospital (in desperate need of replacement) that gives us electricity most of the time.
One nurse had to lecture a patient's sister the other day who was so discouraged that she wanted to leave her sister alone here (the sister has had about 7 surgeries and a wound evisceration, etc - has been here for weeks on end). Thankfully, the sister stayed (the nurse told her she had better be there the next day when she arrived). Families are so necessary to patients here - they cook for them, do the laundary, help wash them and give them medications by mouth. Pray for this gal and her sister - things are hard for them. The woman's husband left her when she got sick.
The nurses are quite a team and really work together to help each other. They are joyful and the days are often full of laughter.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

More pictures!

Nurses I work with who attended a Child Evangelism training today
Momi and I!

Cheri and I with a rain tree!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

He is Alive - and so are we!!!

Saturday night my dear friend Momi walked me home - a stone's throw from her house - after an American dinner we prepared together for her family. About 30 minutes later, as I started to read before falling asleep, I heard a piercing scream. It was about 9:45. Initially thinking someone had died at the hospital and family members were grieving, I paused. Another scream and then another. I got up quickly to move toward the sound, thinking I would ask my duplex neighbor, Cheri, what she thought was going on. Upon reaching the kitchen, the screams had ceased. I paused briefly, wondering what to do and whether to open my door or the top half of the screen. Then, Cheri's back door (a few steps from my door) opened. I peeked out carefully from behind my window curtain and saw the door standing open, no one there. Then, I opened my door and heard Cheri screaming for help. Calling back to her, she answered me "There are burglars in my house!!!" Hardly thinking, I took off barefoot and screaming to reach Momi and Michael's house. A few minutes and a few phone calls later, we all returned to Cheri's house, where she related the story. Two armed men, completely masked and covered in black clothing, had entered her room and pointed a gun directly at her. She had instantly sat up from a half-sleep state and screamed. They immediately left, having taken no more than two cell phones, some money lying out in the open and a table knife (found later by the wall). They left a half-eaten banana (one of Cheri's) and a shotgun shell.
The miracles in this story are too numerous to list. It was not raining, so I heard her scream. I wasn't in Burkina (had returned Wednesday night) or at a labor or still at Momi's house. The men left without touching Cheri - no one but God could have protected her at that moment. I was held back in my kitchen, indecisive, right before the men ran from the house just feet away from me - before I could even see them. Cheri's bedroom light was still on, so she could see them. And the list goes on and on.
Cheri and I have been roommates ever since and the security is gradually increasing, though ultimately we are seeing that God is our real security. We have spent time praying together and remembering the promises of God and reading His words. Many, many visitors coming to encourage Cheri and pray with her, one after the other. People come to be with you. We were debriefed officially on Monday night by another missionary here, which was indeed a blessing. The emotional sequelae continue, but we are grateful to remember the display of God's power and for the outpouring of support and encouragment that have followed.
Easter meant more to me this year than ever - He is indeed alive and because of Him, so are we!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Pictures!



With Linda and friends
Nurses' station
My first delivery!!!!!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Labor

Sunday morning about 6:15 am I welcomed a handsome, big baby boy into the world! What a privilege - I have dreamed of doing a delivery for a long time and was so thoroughly delighted with this answer to my prayer! And I believe it was just the beginning . . . I am on-call at the Ferke hospital to assist with deliveries there.

Labor is pain with great expectation, great hope and great joy to come. It is indeed great pain, but when the baby arrives the joy eclipses the pain.

While encountering my own "contractions" God spoke to me through John 16:20-21. With Him, the grief cannot last. Joy is coming. During contractions, we can follow advice given by Ivorian matrons: breathe deep and rest, don't make a big fuss. As believers, we can rest in Jesus' presence with us and the peace He gives us. We have great hope in Him for His daily compassion and mercy AND for an eternity delighting in His presence on a new earth where righteousness and joy will eclipse sorrow.

I am currently working in the wards at the hospital alongside Ivorian nurses. This has been a wonderful experience. I am making dear friends and learning many things. However, it is not without sorrows. In the past few weeks, two young moms (teens) have died. Often, patients arrive when the illnesses have progressed significantly and sometimes beyond hope of recovery. I have had the privilege of praying with patients as well as sharing the good news of Jesus with a patient's son while sitting at her bedside slowing pushing in IV medications.

The hospital is also a campground since the families come to stay here and provide food and care for the sick family member. When I arrive at 6 am to start working, I walk past grass mats on which people are sleeping - sometimes an infant lying alongside the mother is awake and staying quietly beside her.

Almost every afternoon I go over to visit or play Frisbee with my Congolese friend Momi, her house helper Fatou (13) and young daughter Rosa. Momi's husband is a doctor at the hospital and they live a stone's throw from my duplex, which is about a 1 minute walk from the hospital buildings. This week Momi taught me how to make a Congolese meal!

I am sensing God re-igniting the flame for long-term commitment to sharing the good news of Jesus in another culture. Will it be here? I do not yet know. But there sure are a lot of people praying I'll come back!

Hopefully pictures to come . . .

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Presence

Thomas's question in John 14 is much like mine: "Lord, we don't know where You are going, so how can we know the way?" In my own words, "I can't see what's next . . ." And the way? Jesus replies "I am the way."

This past week, God has been calling me to lift up my eyes to Him, to look at and to Him. (Psalms 121 and 123). In the midst of changes and my ever present questions about the future, my eyes need to look at Him who is my Way.

Rod says that God is a sending God. So, as we are sent, we experience the reality of the gospel in a deeper, fuller way (Philemon 1:6, NIV). And therefore, without being sent, we cannot experience the fullness of the gospel . . .

Ivorians are very present people. They are with you - whether in the simplicity of an everyday greeting or in the depths of grief. They are present.

Last Saturday, news of a great tragedy reached the church courtyard where I was attending a women's meeting. The 3 year old girl I saw in her aunt's wedding one week prior, along with 2 other 3 year old boys (Muslim), had been found dead inside an abandoned car not far from home. People flooded to sit in the courtyard with or near the family. They just sat. Came to be, not to speak.

Likewise, in clinic this week, the RN, interpreter and myself sat with a pregnant gal who had just received the news she was HIV positive. She was stunned. Sat silent a bit, then burst into tears. Touch, presence, prayer and encouragement. Linda said "God will give you the strength to bear this."

Since Monday, I have been in Ferkessedougou at the Hopital Baptiste working mostly with maternity patients, which I love. I am learning so much from Linda, who has lived most of her life here and by experience is far more than an RN! She is a midwife, anesthetist, family practitioner/nurse practitioner. One veiled Muslim woman came in, 3 months pregnant and suffering from the results of an axe blade swung at her head by a rival wife. She is one of 5 wives married to what she calls a "complicated" husband. She has 4 children already. Two women gave birth today in the clinic room - no time to move back into the labor room!

A Fulani gal came in this week on her 10th pregnancy at 25 years old. She lost the last 5 babies, dead at birth. I stayed with her for part of her labor - until the contractions paused - and attempted to communicate without a common language. An answer to prayer, she had a live little girl during the night! On Friday, I met her baby and spent 3 hours in the room with her and another mom and baby who I had met the day prior(I didn't run fast enough to make that delivery!). Those 3 hours were precious. I was able to help the first-time mom learn to feed her baby as well as share the gospel with her in French. Both mothers and grandmothers offered me the babies!

Continue to pray for health, strength and quick grasp of the language and that I will be full of His Spirit in the everyday moments with people here.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Laughter







Living in laughter can be an act of faith. When life is smooth and easy, laugh. When you are driving for hours on the most textured dirt road you have ever experienced and you have no water to drink, definitely laugh – and sing – and laugh some more. Here, in the midst of political uncertainty, social unrest, a frequent lack of city electricity, a university where students live awaiting the return of professors who desire higher salaries . . . laughter is essential to living well. I find that many of the believers I am among know this secret.

On Saturday we attended a village wedding. Leaving at 6 am to attend the ceremony that followed an all-night party, we arrived by the fastest route, about a 2 hour drive. Upon arrival, I was swept into the world of African women, escorted by Abi and Madame Clana, with whom we traveled. Madame and her family live on the Bouake campus – her husband is the campus director. Abi works here during the week and is quickly becoming a dear friend. Both are beautiful Ivorian believers. I donned a colorful outfit that Abi lent me for the day and Madame easily made the necessary adjustments for the top to fit. (A quick side note: here, the colorfully dressed women, about half of which are carrying babies on their backs, make the landscape beautiful – quite the contrast to city streets covered with garbage).

After visiting our Bouake church pastor’s mother-in-law, who lives in the village, we made our way back to sit down for the ceremony around 10 am. A worship band was singing in one corner of the outdoor semi-enclosure set up for the ceremony. The first couple arrived about 11:45 and processed to designated chairs covered with bright pagners (cloths). Then, three more couples arrived about 12, walking in accompanied by a youth choir. More music and introductions followed, including a welcome to Ba Souleyman (Son of Solomon, Rod’s Jula title) and the only other white guest at the wedding (me!).

About three hours later, after a ceremony conducted in two languages I did not understand - and during which I never quite succeeded at napping as some of the other attendees did - everyone got up to congratulate the couples with cheek to cheek kisses. We ate a meal of Attieke (made from maniocs and quite tasty) accompanied by a small amount of meat and vegetables as well as sweet red Bisap and tangy ginger juice served in plastic bags (you drink by piercing a corner of the bag with your teeth and sucking the juice out).

Leaving a little after 4, we piled 7 adults, one toddler and a live chicken (feet tied) into the Land Rover and headed back on the shorter route - a dirt road unlike any I have ever experienced. Almost 5 hours later after one flat tire, almost constant bouncing, multiple road blocks (as is typical in rebel territory), frequent traversal of puddles and unforgettable songs and laughter, we made it home to Bouake parched and exhausted but happy.

In choosing to thank God in the midst of the realities of heat and thirst, I experienced a joy in community – fed by and expressed in laughter - that went far beyond being physically comfortable. What a gift indeed!

Cockroach Kill Count: 4

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Bonne Arrivee!

Frequently, these words echo as a warm welcome. On my first Sunday in church, I introduced myself during the announcements as is customary for newcomers and after the service stood in a receiving line to shake hands with everyone as they walked out! Soon after, members of the church English club crowded around as well as a darling 9 year old who stood silently by my side until I stooped down to speak with her. She hardly left my side till she had to leave and brought her 5 year old sister and young brother to meet me as well. The 5 year old traced the blue veins on my hand - I have clear skin here.
This past week has been a swirl of new experiences, sights, smells and tastes. Life is hands on - handshakes for greeting and parting, carrying or embracing orphans who crave attention, carefully selecting fruits, vegetables and meat at the market, preparing food from scratch . . .
The rebel soldiers who control entry into these northern towns let members of the mission baptiste pass by without paying fees, but buses and taxis and other profitable transportation must pay at each spiked road block that is then slid out of the way for them to pass by. Driving is simple: if you are faster, you pass!
Roadsides in town or near a village are brilliant with colorful paniers worn by the woman, frequently seen with both babies on their back and large bowls of items such as food or fabric on their heads. The Ivorians are experts in transportation without fuel, though they also love motocycles. In the churchyard Sunday were parked at least 15!!!
In the Ragsdale household, French predominates but English and German come second, especially as this is the primary language of my brother Eric (16 but very tall) from Luxembourg.
I can sense your prayers - a sense of peace covers my heart as I delight in life here. I can hardly believe it has only been a week. Please keep praying as soon I will be spending more time in the Bouake orphanage assisting with basic care as well as coming alongside to learn from the nurse and Angelika (whose background is pediatrics).
Prayer times here are wonderful - often everyone prays at once.
Je suis tres reconnaissant pour vous. (I am very grateful for you all).

Monday, February 8, 2010

Called to Be With Him

Last week, a dear friend gave me this passage: Mark 3:13-15. As she spoke it to me, I pictured Jesus in Cote d'Ivoire calling me to come and join Him. The first call is simply to be with Him.

This past week has been precious in so many ways: an evening of worship and prayer, a hike up Multnomah Falls with my family, finishing a series of wood-shop classes given by a dear friend (who at 77 is soon to be married!), a day with my mom, recording music with my sister, and last night's swing dancing with dear friends . . . I am so very blessed!

Tomorrow we go - yes, we. My Father and I will be traveling together (even though He's already there, too) and I so look forward to that time. And "we" are going in another sense as well. I go together with all of you who are praying and sending me. I might be the feet this time, but there is no way I can make it without the rest of the body!

Monday, February 1, 2010

Over the Top!!!

I am almost $900 over-the-top in funds!!! Praise God for His hilarious provision over and above . . . and pray for Spirit-direction in use of the funds as needs arise. I might be able to bless ministry over there in an unexpected way!

My plane ticket is set for February 9 - next Tuesday. Preparations are underway. The visa has yet to arrive, but the embassy did call me last week regarding the correct envelope. They are sending it express mail.

Pray for a week full of the Spirit's peace, joy and wisdom as I prepare to leave and for sweet connections with those I hold dear.

A new favorite verse from Psalm 119:74 "May those who fear You rejoice when they see me, for I have put my hope in Your word."

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Journey Corps Vision

Check out http://www.missionsfrontline.com/profiles/blogs/aaron-and-daniel-on-journey?xg_source=activity to hear about the vision for Journey Corps. This program will be in development while I am in Bouake, with the first participants coming in September 2010.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Wow!

Between Friday morning and today (Monday afternoon), my support has jumped 31 points up to 80%!!! I am laughing with delight at how my Father is providing! He loves to surprise me.

Last night as I was praying, this verse leapt to mind: "Those who know Your name will trust in You, for You have never forsaken those who seek You." Psalms 9:10

He is our Provider!

Sunday, January 24, 2010


I can settle for nothing less than devoting my life to Christ and
the fulfillment of the task the Most High has given the church – to accomplish God’s heart in the Great Commission.

Almost ten years ago, I penned those words. As I read them again, I am humbled by a sense of desperate need for Jesus every step of the way. And He has promised to be there!

In May of 2009, I completed my nursing degree and became a licensed Registered Nurse in July. Little did I know that my plans paled in light of God’s dreams for me this year! Jesus is taking me on a new adventure this spring following His heart to heal the broken.

So, where am I going?
Northern Cote d’Ivoire!

I will be working as a “Community Health Intern” with WorldVenture under field staff Rod and Angelika Ragsdale. As an RN, I will volunteer in several settings: hospital, orphanage and community. My high school French has been revived and will soon be used in daily life!
Lord willing, I plan to be there from February to May. To depart by mid-February, WorldVenture needs to receive all my funding by the end of January.

Will you come alongside me?
Would you consider becoming part of my prayer team? This is my foremost need and request. If you are willing, please choose a day of the week that you will be sure to pray and let me know what it is. I will be creating a prayer calendar and praying for you on that same day!

For the King for Life!